It has been so long since I’ve done a meditation, and boy, was ever in need of one. Since hubby’s been home on workman’s comp it’s been hard to find time to myself between him and the boys. Last night, I finally got some.
The reason why I’ve needed a mediation so bad? Well, one…it’s been forever since I’ve done it (need to start doing it every day…or at least a few times a week) and I’ve also been reading and posting quite a bit as of late on a religious message board. The message board is supposed to be about the tv show, Revelations…which I have been watching. (Can’t not watch Bill Pullman!) Of course, the message board is mostly a religious debate, no one really talking about the show at all. But anyway, I’m strong in my beliefs, and love to try to teach others about them, if they want to learn. So I’ve just been going back and forth with reading and sometimes posting when I feel the need. My mind has been overloaded by it lately, and I haven’t slept well the past few nights.

So, last night (I should say early this morning, as it was about 3am) I finally got some time alone to sit down, relax and meditate. Hubby bought me a diskman a couple weeks ago, so I can listen to soothing music…so I popped in my Fairy In The Woods disk, set my alter in front of the couch, set up a white candle and Greentea incense, turned off the lights, and sat down.
I stared at the candle for a bit, realized that the music wasn’t right and skipped to the next song. Ahhh…much better. My eyes slipped shut and there I was, walking in the moonlight through a garden of flowers and trees. Little lights flickered past me….faeries! I kept walking and ended up in my meadow from previous meditations. The big oak tree was all alight with faerie flickers. There was a table and “chairs” (all tree stumps) set up underneath the tree. I sat down and as I was watching the faeries flickering in the half-light (from the moon), I saw a pair of eyes in the woods surrounding the meadow. Instantly I thought of the God and then out He walks. Next I see the Goddess emerge. She’s got a glow about Her like moonlight. She walks over and sits down on the other stump. She smiles at me and I smile back. My heart starts to feel lighter already. We talk, mostly about the message board stuff (seems funny, but that has been at the forefront of my thoughts lately.) She’s very understanding and reassuring. Then She reaches out Her hand and covers both of mine (which are clasped together, resting on the stump table). I feel a tingling and warmth surge through me. It is an awesome feeling. My heart speeds up as the energy She sends washes through me. She then withdraws Her hand, and as the energy dissapates, my heart slows back down and my breathing becomes regular once more. She stands, saying She must go now. I stand and smile as the God links Her arm in his and They walk together back into the forest. The faerie lights are still flickering, but there are less of them now. I realize it is time for bed. I slowly come back from my meditation…and I feel so much better!
I sat staring at the candle for a bit longer, in awe of my first real meeting and conversation with the Goddess. Then I cleaned up and went to bed…and I slept really well.